Tuesday, May 26, 2015
Birthdays and Letting Go
We are still homeschooling through the summer, but we only go four days a week. I like it. I am liking our routine more and more. I am trying to meal plan more to make life more peaceful and reduce some of my stress. It is "loose meal planning" meaning only dinner. I like it, it feels good to have some sort of plan. I have discovered the amazing and beautiful world of audio books! I have been a mother for eight years and just now, NOW, am listening to audio books?? This is going to sound strange but I have to breath in a paper bag for thirty minutes everyday, doctor's orders, really. Really everyone would benefit from it. But it is helping work on very specific health issues. Anyhow, I hate it. Thirty minutes feels like an eternity. One day I was complaining that I can't read my novel while I breath in my bag, so my hero came to the rescue and found it for me on audio! Thank you Husband! It was like a whole new world opened up to me.
There is a lesson I keep having to learn..LET GO. I will think I have a handle on it and then am shown that no, no I do not. But I am taking baby steps and that is what matters. My motto for my days is LOVE, PEACE, and HOPE.
I turn 29 in July and feel old. I know 29 isn't old but I kind of feel it. I asked Clay, "Where did my twenties go?" I look at our kids and see where my twenties went. :) I was a Mommy by twenty and four babies later here I am. I didn't take trips around the world or get a masters but I am surprisingly okay and at peace with that. I have learned a lot of amazing lessons a long the way and have loved and been loved, none of which comes with out hardship and suffering. But there is beauty in having peace with our stories.